[F4M] Why Am I Like This? [Script Offer] [Submissive] [Conflicted] [Humiliated] and loving it. [Leash and Collar] [Vibrator] [First time with toys] [Inexperienced] [Facial]

Our heroine gingerly asks her newish boyfriend if he'd be down to explore some kink... not realizing her idea of 'kink' is pretty darn tame. He ups the stakes when he discovers a private fetish she barely even knew she had.

Throughout, a balance of lustful/horny and upset/defensive/embarrassed tone of voice is appropriate; she's confused and conflicted, and working through these feelings as they come.

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Hey- hey babe? Can you come here a minute?

I... have something I want to talk to you about, but I'm a little nervous.

Well, it's just - okay, we've been together, what, like three months? And- well, /I/ certainly think the sex has been really great. You know I... uh... always enjoy your /talents/. And to be honest, this is actually the most, uh, the most consistently sexually active I've ever been... anyway I don't know if it's just because I've been so much hornier these days, or just because of how often we have sex, or if I'm just finally feeling more comfortable, but... I've been thinking, maybe we could... like... get- a little bit adventurous? 

I don't know!

No, really, I- I don't have anything specific in mind! I- I just thought maybe we could explore together..

Okay, like - [voice lowers in embarrassment] like maybe we could try out vibrators or something... or, I dunno, I've seen these, like, dildos... Not that this would be instead of you, or anything! But like, maybe at the same time, or... unh, never mind, I shouldn't have said any-

Oh-! You'd... you'd be into that? Oh, you'd be /happy/ to explore with me, would you? *giggle*

Why didn't I say anything before? Well, I dunno, I didn't know what sort of things you'd be up for! I mean, you haven't said or done anything to suggest you aren't perfectly happy with our sex life as it is, and- I mean, I didn't want you to think I was a freak or something! 

Oh, you think /I'm/ the more vanilla one, huh? 

Well- yeah, I guess that's true, I don't really know much about your, uh, fantasies, or anything... and you WERE awfully surprised to hear I'd never given anyone else a blowjob before...

Well, you're definitely going to have to tell me more about what YOU like...

You want to focus on me for now? O-okay... but like... I don't know! I don't really even know what I'm into, and- and it's, y'know, embarrassing... I- I know I'm being difficult, but honestly, I hardly even know what to ask for...

Hm?

Do I... Do I watch porn? Well.. y-yeah, sometimes... I mean, everyone likes a little fantasy now and then, right?

What?

Oh! That's... yeah, that's an idea. You could borrow my laptop and look through my browsing history to see what I like... and then come up with some ideas for us to try together? You'd to that for me?

*Kiss*

You are SUCH a sweetheart!

Okay, I'll see you tomorrow. I can't wait!

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*door opens*

*giggle* Ooo, is that a bag of toys for me?

Here, come on in. Want anything to drink?

*giggle* Eager to get right to it, huh? Good, me too. Honestly, I was so horny at work all day, thinking about this!

Okay, so should I go ahead and open this...?

Okay!

*optional rummaging noise as she opens the bag, starts digging things out.*

Oh! A dildo! That's just like what I was imagining. Although- it is kinda big, isn't it?

Let's see what, else... Oh, is this-? *sound of a vibrator as she turns it on* *squeal of delight* *if possible, a change in the noise as she goes to a different setting* Oh wow, does it - oh! That... seems really powerful. *turns it off*

There's more? Okay, let's take a look...

Huh! That's a funky shape! Can't wait to see how that feels.

And- here we go... /also/ a fun shape - oo, I wonder where that part goes...

Wow, you really went all-out here babe! Thank you so much for getting all this! Let's see what else is left in the bag...

*her tone abruptly shifts to wary/confused/defensive, as she pulls out...*

Is... is that a... a collar? Like a dog collar? Babe, did you... get the bags mixed up..? But you don't have a...

*tone now even more defensive and veering into actively angry*

It's - what do you mean it's for me? You don't think I would /wear/ that, do you? 

Why not!? Because! It's - humiliating! You- you want me to wear that like I'm some kind of /dog?/ Like I'm your /pet?/

Babe, the dildos and vibrators are great, but what on earth would make you think I'd want this?

*tone shifts again, now to defensive/pleading/embarrassed, as he explains that he found various porn of this theme in her browsing history*

*gasp* No, I've never- I mean- *smaller voice* I could have /sworn/ I deleted those!

Look, I- that was just something I happened to stumble upon, okay?

Well yeah, I... I did watch quite a few different... and for several... but that doesn't mean I like it! I was- it was- just... sort of fascinating, okay? Like - like a train wreck.

[He asks if she masturbated to them]

*unconvincingly* I... I don't remember. 

Well-! I-I mean yeah, I was watching porn, I was probably masturbating too... 

[He asks which videos she liked best]

I told you, I didn't /like/ any of them! It was just, like... fascinating.

[He asks which she found most fascinating, then]

Which did I think were the most fascinating?

[some unintentional lust creeps into her voice]

W-well... there was one where she had a c-collar like this, and he made her p-play with herself until she came... and she just, like, looked so embarrassed!

And... and there were some where the girl has to be his s-slave, and like... do whatever he wants... 

Which is just... disgusting, and- i mean, he was like... using her like she was an object, it's totally humiliating!

Huh?

What? Stick my hand down my pants...? Babe! I'm not gonna like masturbate for you, or-

What do you mean, you want to see something? Fine, whatever, I'll-

*gasp*

[tone goes softer; she's confused/upset, but also horny...]

I... I guess I am... really wet...

But, um... that's just... from the toys, from earlier- not from talking about...

W-well, I... I guess... I mean, sure, on SOME level I guess... there's a part of me... that... likes the idea of...

But I couldn't actually, like-! W-wear a collar, or...

Because! It would be so humiliating!

Well... yeah, I mean... I guess that /would/ sort of be the point...

[she's reaching the tipping point of frustration/upsetness and horniness]

I guess... I guess /maybe/ if you- p-promised you'd... n-never tell anyone... as long as we're experimenting anyway, maybe just this once..

Yes, you can... put it on me.

*maybe a clip or latch sound effect as he fastens the collar*

 [from here on, her tone runs the range from lustful and horny to upset and embarrassed; she is genuinely slightly horrified at her behavior, but also *very* turned on by it. Moans of ecstasy and sobs of distress go side by side]

How does it feel?

E-embarrassing...

...and... really sexy...

What do you have there? Is that a /leash/? Yeah, I.. I guess you can clip that in...

Look, can we- can we try out one of the other toys now?

Okay! Yeah, t-that one. *sounds from a vibrator turned on*

I'll just pull my skirt up...

*giggle* nope, no panties! I came prepared.

Oh!

Oh god, that feels amazing. Oh wow... I love how much control I have, I can hold it juuuuust right on my clit.

*several moments of assorting gasping/etc as she gets to know what is presumably her first-ever vibrator*

[somewhat breathlessly] Not- not that this alone isn't more than enough to get me off, but just in the interest of experimenting, I think I want to try one of the dildos too. Oh, unless- do you want to f-fuck me? I can only imagine your cock and the vibrator at the same time-!

No? Oh, um, okay... then, could you hand me that dildo?

No? What - ow, don't tug on the leash like that!

I- you want me to /crawl/ over to you for it?

I... I guess... I can do that...

(pause)

Okay, can I have it now?

You- you want me to take it in my mouth, and carry it back?

[assorted mouth sounds as she does so]

Okay... there we go...

Let's see, if I stand this up on the ground I can sort of... kneel on top of it...

OH, man, that's big... that's r-really filling my pussy... and then I can take the vibrator- oh! You're taking your pants off! Do you- do you want me blow you?

No? You - you just want to watch? You're just going to stand there, holding the leash...? Staring at me and stroking your cock... Babe, no, this is so humiliating..

I just- I just wanted to experiment a little, that's all! Just some honest fun - I'm not like some kind of, of /slut/ or something!

My shirt? Yeah, I can take it off. Oh - j-just pull it up over my tits? I-I guess. 

Okay, now... *turns on vibrator again* *gasp*

Oh... oh... oh!

*assorted improvisation for several moments as she works herself almost to orgasm*

Oh god... I'm going to...!

[vibrator sound stops abruptly]

Hey! Give that back, I was just about to cum! 

I'm not - what do you mean I'm not /allowed/ to cum yet?

I - /yes/, I want to! Okay, okay, I'll do what you say!

Y-yes, the dildo is... totally inside me...

Spread my legs wider? Okay...

A-and... put my hands flat on the floor in front of me? Like this? God, that really makes my back arch... my tits are just hanging out there...

Can I- *vibrator turns on* ahh! Y-yes, right there! Oh, it's- it's - /just/ barely touching my clit... can I, can I crawl forward just a little bit? Thank you!

Ohhhhhh! *panting, etc*

[everything hereafter in a breathy tone, as she's hanging out close to orgasm]

Hhnnnng! /Please/ can I come now?

*whine* No?? Why not? Haven't you... haven't you done enough to me yet?

You- you want to cum first? Oh, I can come when you come?

Well... can I suck you off, then? I-I can swallow you like usual...

No? Well then how- are you just going to jerk yourself off?

But I can help? I can... I can /beg/ for it? Beg for wha- oh! You want to- on my-!? Babe! Why do you even...

/Yes/, I want to cum! 

puh-please, will you... will you cum for me? I want you to... I w-want you to come... /on/ me... *in a small voice* c-cum on my f-face... please...

*vibrator changes settings*

Oh! Oh god!

P-please... I need to cum... just cum all over me... come on my tits, cum on my face... y'you can slap your cock against my face... or rub it over my tongue... j-just like in the video... you can make me your little porngirl, y-your little s-slut... is that what you want? You want me to be a slut for you? Please... cum for me... cum on my face.... cum on my face!

*orgasm, improve as desired* Yes! Yes, yes!

*breathing slows and returns to normal*

I-I can't believe you... came all over my face like that...

I- yes, I mean- well, that was... that was probably the biggest orgasm I've ever had...

But that doesn't - I mean.. god, I'm wearing a /dog collar/ around my neck! Why am I like this!?